Thursday, October 31, 2013

Life Goes On-10/31-Miles, Owies & Boo's

My mother's car is due for its Safety Inspection and Emission check prior to getting it Registered and Licensed. By the end of this month. Oh, ya, it's the end of the month. That's not to say I haven't had plans to get it done earlier, it's just that for a variety of reasons today became crunch day.

This cars road miles are few and far between and mostly jaunts of less than 5 miles each way. My curiosity got me to wondering if it had even gone 1,000 miles in the last 12 months. Hah! Less than that with only 688 miles. With that in mind I'd previously decided it needed the similar pre-emission test Road Trip that my little blue truck gets: get on the freeway and travel approximately 60 miles North away from congested traffic to blow out the carbon in the engine. (This is recommendation from the tech at the County testing station when my truck failed emission, and he learned it had spent most of the previous 4 months sitting in the driveway. It worked.) So, up earlier than normal and head out. 60 miles later I exit and do the McD's drive-thru for a diet coke and head back the same 60 miles. Next stop was the car service shop I use to get safety and emission.


Imagine my surprise to drive up on the last day of the month and find my choice of all parking spots along with open service bays. What?! The place should be loaded with all the last minute people like me but I'm glad it's not. Inside there were no patrons in the waiting area and I'm beginning to believe I'm living in an alternate universe. Keys turned over and I get my choice of chairs. Timing is everything! Five minutes later 2 other customers are in the waiting area and within another 10 minutes 4 more customers have filled up more chairs. One of those was a young mother who brings in a stroller with a toddler and baby. I was impressed by her ingenuity using her foot to rock the baby in its carrier while balancing a tablet on her lap that was playing cartoons for the toddler while she texted on her phone. Impressive.

Being first in the queue it wasn't long before my name was called and the car was done. It passed with flying colors.  Next stop is county DMV and the drive-thru renewal windows. Oh, now I know where the waiting line is. All three lanes 4 cars deep and it s-l-o-w progress. Took about as long to get the renewal sticker here as it did to get the car inspected and emission tested. However, finally done and this days task is completed.


NEXT on the to-do list:
The tooth troubles have continued and I need to confirm with the dentist what he'll probably tell me: ROOT CANAL! Call his office and get the answering machine saying to call back at 1:30pm after they return from lunch. Okay, I give them until 2:00pm but again got the answering machine so this time I leave a message explaining my problem and ask they call me. No call returned. Yikes.

NEXT on the to-do list:
A Cancer connection? Because I'm in the Nadir portion of my treatment and possibility of infection or abscess of tooth I'm not sure what the implications are, so I call my C-Dr office to ask if there is anything I need to know or do? The chemo nurse called me back later and after some discussion phoned in an order for heavy-dose antibiotic to be taken prior to a root canal.

NEXT on the list:

Oh, as I'm preparing the bowl of treats for the Trick-or-Treaters I realize the dental office may have taken the day, or afternoon, off to prepare or do school kid things today. Hope they call me in the morning and it isn't the 'off' of their every-other Friday they work.

BUT, we did get a few doorbell ringers so I could get rid of some of the goodies that were ready for them.



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Sunday, October 27, 2013

When Dark Clouds of Trouble...

Today is my favorite Sacrament Meeting of the year, the annual Children's Primary Presentation. They have spent many months learning the songs from the Children's Songbook, from the Program Guide, and the adult Hymnbook. They've also had several weeks to memorize their speaking parts. I love serving in Primary having done so in many positions over the years, and most recently, for over a year now, have been the Primary secretary. Since my Cancer diagnosis and chemotherapy treatments I have not missed a single Sunday fulfilling my duties. However, I must admit the same cannot be said for our 9:00am Sacrament Meeting; 9am is too early. It is! And more so on Chemo Week.

Yesterday morning, scheduled for 9:00am, was the program practice and since this was Chemo Week I knew of the two 9:00am sessions, I would need to miss the practice in order to make the Sacrament Meeting program--which I did. Barely.

It was a great meeting! Love the children, love the music. One of the songs the children sang was "We Thank Thee, O God, for a Prophet" from our adult Hymnbook and came about half-way through their program. The children would be singing the first verse and we in the congregation were asked to join them for verses 2 & 3. This song is one I don't need a hymnbook (know the words & my tin-ear voice just sings the melody) and enjoyed listening to the children sing verse 1. Toward the end of the first verse I quickly realized what words were coming next, and found myself with watering eyes, tight throat, and unable to join in...
"When dark clouds of trouble hang 'oer us
And threaten our peace to destroy..."

I've tried to keep a positive attitude since my Cancer journey has started. However, there are times when you do feel a dark cloud is hanging over you and any peace you once had IS threatened and do what you can to not have that peace destroyed. Usually those thoughts and words just rumble through your mind but I was caught off guard by this moment and the realization of vocalizing those words. The next line is "There is hope smiling brightly before us" and got me to thinking about the chemo and it is the hope I have that allows me to keep smiling brightly. Couldn't compose myself enough to sing the rest of the verse but made it for the last of the 3rd verse. Fortunately this was a church meeting that elicits lots of tears from people for many reasons although if anyone noticed me I doubt they would have guessed my reason.




2 great music books







The Primary theme for 2013 is "I Am a Child of God"
I am grateful for that and for the love He as shown me this year.


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Saturday, October 26, 2013

Touchdown!

Goal achieved!!  (see 4th & Goal)

I did not take any of these Senna-S tablets and as a result also did not get the funky, icky, crappy, feeling I've had previously during Chemo Week. It was wonderful. That's not to say I didn't have some of the constipation chemo side-effect but I dealt with that by food choices and avoided what I've decided is the side-effect remedy that's worse than the side effect.

It felt great and has been scored as a win-win!

Just hoping the experience can be repeated in round#5 next month.
It's worth it.



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Friday, October 25, 2013

Life Goes On - Dental Deja Vu Doo



At my previous routine dental appointment last May a 'deep' cavity was found, and filled. It was hoped that was all that would be needed. Ya, that may be a clue.


Two nights ago at dinner I take a bite of hot chicken and while chewing it just about go through the roof as the food hits a very sensitive spot on either 'that' tooth or a tooth in the vicinity. After the OUCH comes the ACHE. Been down this road several years ago and am hoping this simply a one-time event.
Tonight I'm enjoying a dish of ice cream (after dinner treat which has proven to be very soothing during Chemo Week) and while savoring it just about go through the roof -again- as it hits a very sensitive spot on either 'that' tooth or tooth in the vicinity. After the OUCH comes the ACHE. Like I said: been down this road before and realize this is most likely not a one-time event.

Root Canal? What else can happen this year?! Decided to be careful where I chew food and see what happens over the next several days. Desperately hoping it will pass. Hoping... Hoping... Hoping...




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Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Life Goes On

You'll be seeing this title on many posts coming up. It occurred to me that since my Cancer diagnosis although it has drastically altered, changed, and consumed my life in many ways the fact is "Life Goes On" day after day. So I decided that maybe I'd include more of the daily stuff that happens so readers don't think all I do is get chemotherapy treatments, complain about feeling crappy during Chemo Week, and grumble about other related stuff.


Continuing my journey.


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Tuesday, October 22, 2013

ChemoDay#2 - round#4

Time in 'the chair' on Tuesday's is a few hours, but less than yesterday.

Not much to report today other than standard day#2 routine.

1.  Go in for 'vitals' check and the regular gal is still gone today so it's a guy as her replacement, but he's even less talkative than the gal from yesterday. Later on another patient came into the infusion room and his wife, after asking one of the chemo nurses why regular vitals gal isn't here today, then says, "Well, he needs to work on his people skills!" That left me chuckling knowing exactly what she meant.

2.  Find my chair and chemo nurse connects a syringe to my port, suctions it just a little bit which draws up some blood and confirms the connection to port (and vein) is still good.

3.  Benedryl is started and takes about 20 minutes to complete.

This is my view today. 
The lady in the bright colored shirt is wife of a patient.

4.  The 2nd small-bag IV is started and is done in about 20 minutes.

5.  Bendamustine is started and takes about an hour to complete.

6.  Next is a flush of saline solution with Heparin in it that's administered via syringe (right) into the port via the catheter line. Heparin is an anti-coagulant and this is done to prevent my Port from getting plugged up with clots.

7.  The Huber needle is removed from the Port and a small bandage placed over the skin, mostly to protect my clothes from the drop or two of blood that escapes with the needle.

8.  I'm free! Well, free to leave and do other stuff.

I might as well take a minute here and show this diagram below as I've mentioned the 'ole Huber Needle several times yesterday and today. Of course it all makes sense to me but I'll try and explain if it will help (until I can get pictures) or you can check this post "Get the Popcorn" and check out the video there. Anyway, the Huber-point Needle is inserted into the Port, which is just underneath my skin. The Catheter Line continues to the Connector and it's the connector that is hooked up to the IV's, or the syringes, which fit into the connector. The Clip is used to pinch off the catheter line to prevent fluids from going through it when needed or allow fluids to go through when necessary.

Oh, wait. I don't need to get a picture.
This picture from my first treatment.
The white circular piece holds the Huber-point Needle.
The yellow piece is the Clip.
The Connector is out of frame so maybe I do need a new picture.



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Monday, October 21, 2013

ChemoDay#1 - round#4 - timeline


Several weeks ago a good friend of mine, that I've known for close to 35 years, asked if she could join me during one of my chemo days to see what goes on. My opinion? Not much goes on but she recently had another friend, who lives out of state, diagnosed with breast cancer and currently undergoing chemo so I think is curious about the process. Being internet phobic so has no access to my blog and only my verbal descriptions (admittedly aren't very good and a reason my preference to include many pictures here) to explain what's been going on with my cancer experiences. Told her ChemoDay#2 is best since it's the shorter time to be stuck there but she had prior conflicts and didn't want to wait another month. So, arrangements were made for a passenger to join me on ChemoDay#1. (She didn't want to drive separately.) Told her, warned her, advised her it would be a l-o-n-g day and once infusion started I was stuck there until it was completed. And that's how for my 9:20am C-Dr appt...

7:00am - alarm goes off, hit Snooze button and roll over.

7:30am - 2nd alarm goes off, hit Snooze button and roll over.

7:45am - 3rd alarm goes off; it's intentionally on the other side of bedroom so I'm forced to get out of bed. Stumble to bathroom for shower and start process of making myself presentable to the outside world.

8:00am - call friend, who'd said she would be here at 8:30, and kindly informed her that I'm running slow and she can take her time.

8:40am - discover my mother is up & dressed and says she's ready to drive me to Dr appointment (she's less a morning person than me! but has also been sick, flat in bed, and barely eaten anything for last 3 days). Her dementia does add some variety to life and I'm glad one of my sisters will be coming up to be with her today.

8:50am - putting my lunch and snacks together into 'chemo busy bag' when friend shows up. We're soon off and on our way.

9:10am - yup, arrived early but plenty of time to check in, write check for co-pay, get receipt, and taking clue from notice on receptionist desk to ask about flu shots that are offered here. Oh, realize the long sleeved shirt I'm wearing today is not conducive to receiving a flu shot. Since I'm here again tomorrow the wardrobe will be planning more appropriately.

9:15am - my friend waits in the outer office as I'm called back for the 'vitals' work: weight, blood pressure, oxygen level, and temperature. The regular vitals gal is on vacation and the replacement isn't too chatty so I'm quickly escorted back to the exam room and wait for C-Dr. I can hear him talking with a patient in the next room but not clearly enough to follow conversation clearly, although from a few words I can pick up it reminded me of my first visit with him. Pick up the only magazine and absorb myself in it and wait.

and wait.

and wait.

9:45am - C-Dr comes in and apologizes for the wait saying he was with a new patient; tell him that's okay as I was a new patient once too and appreciated the time he took with me on that visit. Then down to business. Like previous visits a review of my last chemo treatment and how things have gone since then. Told him of my 'test' of delaying Senna-S for a day and my hope to make it through this week without having to use it at all. Also that I had used the anti-nausea pills, one night and morning and they did take the edge off my gunkiness feeling. Then he writes up the Rx for CT scan that will be used to see how things are going. Told him I'm looking forward to the results, and yet apprehensive at the same time. Nice guy: tells me that's normal but "you'll do just fine." Who doesn't like hearing that?! Just before it's time to hop up on exam table C-Dr says "You know, I never hear from you between treatments." Told him I hoped there would never be a reason to call him but this way he has time for the patients who really need him. He smiles and just says it's good I'm doing well. Mentally I'm telling myself to make a note and sometime next week to call and leave a message for him just to say 'Hi.' In a few weeks I've got a dentist appointment and ask C-Dr if there's anything I need to know about that. He asks if it's a routine cleaning and when I confirm that he says shouldn't be a problem but I do need to let dentist know of my cancer. Oh, great. Next step is the exam where he checks my neck and other lymph node areas and then says "good" and after that I'm released to go find my infusion chair for the day.

10:00am - drop off my Busy Bag in 'the chair' and then out to reception and escort my friend back to infusion room. There are only 2 other patients in there and only one of the regular chemo nurses so it looks like it might be another slow Monday, meaning few infusion patients on the schedule. My friend plunks herself into an infusion chair across from me and will likely not have to give it up to a patient today. She looks comfy doesn't she?

10:05am - introductions are made when chemo nurse Lisa comes and gets the IV to my Port started and collects the blood sample needed the 'check my [blood] counts' making sure the numbers are good enough so the chemotherapy can be done. My friend averts her eyes during the procedure that inserts the IV needle into the port and also while the blood was being drawn but once that was done she was okay. While I wait for results this is a time I take for a restroom break w/o the IV pole and on my return my friend and I chat.

10:20am - nurse Lisa reports my numbers are good and gets me started on the course for today. The two small bags seen on the right (top of pole) are done first, starting with the Benedryl that takes about 20 minutes and is the one that makes me quite drowsy before its bag is completely emptied. I've learned to just go with the flow and rest my eyes rather than fight it. When the 2nd small bag (the anti-nausea stuff I think) is started, which also takes about 20 minutes, I'm usually still in resting my eyes mode but am more alert before it finishes. The medium sized bag on the bottom is regular saline that is used as a 'flush' between each med and the largest bag on top is the Rituxan.

11:00am - the Rituxan is started. My friend asks how long it will take and I tell her about 4 hours. We chat. We read. We rest our eyes. We snack on our lunch. I do a crossword. I watch the slow drip, drip, drip of my IV. We chat. We read. We...etc.

12:00noon - except for me, all other patients have left. We have the place to ourselves the rest of the day. Here's a view to my right. View to the left is similar with empty chairs. View across from me? Well, you saw that already!

1:00pm - nurse Lisa comes over and says C-Dr has determined that since I've done so well on the Rituxan with no side effects during infusion the past 3 treatments it will be okay to increase the drip rate and she cranks it up. Advantage is we're gonna get out of here earlier today than any other Monday. Yay! Disadvantage? I wonder and worry for several minutes if there will be a problem with the higher drip rate.

2:00pm - Rituxan bag is empty and the Bendamustine is started. Countdown of the final hour. More chatting with friend. More reading. More impatience waiting for today's visit in 'the chair' to end.

3:15pm - Bendamustine bag has emptied and the saline flush of Port has been completed followed lastly by a syringe push of Heparinized Saline used to prevent clotting in Port. All tubes removed except the Huber needle IV access tube that will remain in place overnight to be ready for tomorrow's infusion. Maybe I'll try and get a picture of that for next month.

Out early. Now what?
We'd always planned on going somewhere for dinner after my treatment and decided to give Cracker Barrel our business but never expected it would be a 3:30pm dinner. Way too early. So...
...we drove over there and had our choice of plentiful parking spots; at this time of day I'd think so! The weather was gorgeous and temperature superlative so we sat like two old people in the rockers on the porch and talked away the entire next hour. Watched the nearly empty parking lot collect more cars. Watched people go in. Watched people go out. Watched some of the people we'd watched go in come back out later after they'd eaten. Watched the traffic on the freeway. Watched the guy reading a book while riding his skateboard along the road and shortcut through the parking lot--watched for him to fall but he didn't. Amazing. 

4:45pm - watching more and more customers go in so we decide to abandon our comfy rockers and get in ourselves. 

6:00pm - arrive home, friends hops in her car to get herself home too.

Long day as warned, or promised.



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Thursday, October 17, 2013

4th & Goal




Title of this post? Well, it is football season. I don't follow any teams. I don't watch football games, on TV or in person. I don't tailgate, although that part of the obsession makes my mouth water.


In this 4th round of chemo my goal is to not use the Senna-S tablets.


As described here to determine if the Senna-S is the reason for the funky feeling I get, and the result that it most likely was...I'm hoping to avoid completely that funky feeling I get by avoiding a need for the Senna-S tablets. And, like last month it will require some advance planning of high fiber foods and food combinations. Golly, could it be possible?

Chemo-caused constipation causes concern constantly.


Plenty of chili, whole wheat bread, etc. already in my larder. Some Fruit Snacks from Sam's Club were part of the equation, and fun to eat. Next stop was a trip to the grocery store to stock up on fresh fibrous fruits and veggies (pineapple, cantaloupe-in-season!, grapes, broccoli, etc.). As a bonus Fiber One snack bars (which I've never had before) to use as dessert or snack were on sale and I had coupons!
Used all my coupons and picked up a variety to see how well flavors compared to the advertising and if I'd find a new favorite of something. Oh my goodness, the Lemon Bar flavor? Score!






As for the Senna-S tablets? Well, maybe I should have read this about the "Side Effects" section earlier. After reading it now my thinking is perhaps, like a good detective, I'm on to something.



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Monday, October 14, 2013

Monday, October 7, 2013

No NADIR Apppointment!!

AKA --
No mid-terms today! 

Just a reminder that because my blood work and cell counts were so good at the September NADIR visit my C-Dr said I would be able to skip what would have been today's NADIR appointment (or what I've called 'mid-terms'). This is a good sign and I hope it continues.




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